I did. [Nebula manages, watching Gamora and then the pitcher of lemonade. She moves slowly toward the drink, but doesn't turn her back to her sister for a moment. Her gaze follows Gamora's descent down to sitting and her discomfort.]
Similar. But not the same. It is a different sort of cruelty. [Nebula finds herself agreeing.] ...did you want a drink too? [Since as she is, Gamora can't exactly get one on her own.]
[It's more difficult to drink than Gamora cares to admit. Not impossible certainly, but not exactly dignified. She shakes her head, watching her sister watching her. Nebula's on edge, clearly not trusting her.]
You are right. Their punishments are not as violent as what we - you. Are used to.
[She stumbles a little. She has no right to claim to know Thanos' violence. Not like Nebula.]
I am sorry. For trying to kill you. For saying what I said. [She takes a breath.] I was... I...
[She can't admit how upset she was to Nebula. Gamora looks down at her bare thighs. It's easier to focus there than on her sister.] I don't blame you.
[In the same situation, Nebula would be very unlikely to accept her sister's help. Admitting to even obvious weakness isn't an easy thing for either of them, for obvious reasons. She sits beside her, holding the glass of lemonade in her lap and not immediately drinking it. Nebula's jaw tightens, staring down at the glass, finally turning to look at Gamora trying her hardest to look only at her face and not her bare legs. Seeing her like this is uncomfortable for a number of reasons.]
I blame me. [Nebula admits, trying to steel her expression.] I think every day what I could have done differently. If I hadn't let Thanos get that information out of my head...
I killed myself, you know. The version of me from the other Gamora's timeline. She was going to kill you. [She shakes her head, correcting herself.] The other you. And I couldn't let it happen. Not again.
[Its then that Gamora realises. If she hadn’t told Nebula where the Soul Stone was, then Thanos wouldn’t have tortured Nebula to make Gamora tell. The fault ultimately lies with Gamora. She takes a minute, working through her grief still. But Nebula killed Her counterpart to protect Gamora? There is so much love and hope expressed in that one violent sentiment. And Nebula killing her counterpart to save Gamora?
Things start clicking into place and Gamora starts to allow herself to be the bigger picture. The Guardians - her death - will allow Nebula to heal. Nebula can’t thrive with her sister, her competition, her torturer, there. In dying, Gamora will give Nebula a chance to grow and change and experience happiness. Her death won’t save the universe, but it will save her sister.
That at least clear in her head, Gamora looks up from her thighs and over at her sister.]
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Similar. But not the same. It is a different sort of cruelty. [Nebula finds herself agreeing.] ...did you want a drink too? [Since as she is, Gamora can't exactly get one on her own.]
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You are right. Their punishments are not as violent as what we - you. Are used to.
[She stumbles a little. She has no right to claim to know Thanos' violence. Not like Nebula.]
I am sorry. For trying to kill you. For saying what I said.
[She takes a breath.] I was... I...
[She can't admit how upset she was to Nebula. Gamora looks down at her bare thighs. It's easier to focus there than on her sister.] I don't blame you.
[It's not quite a lie.]
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I blame me. [Nebula admits, trying to steel her expression.] I think every day what I could have done differently. If I hadn't let Thanos get that information out of my head...
I killed myself, you know. The version of me from the other Gamora's timeline. She was going to kill you. [She shakes her head, correcting herself.] The other you. And I couldn't let it happen. Not again.
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[Its then that Gamora realises. If she hadn’t told Nebula where the Soul Stone was, then Thanos wouldn’t have tortured Nebula to make Gamora tell. The fault ultimately lies with Gamora.
She takes a minute, working through her grief still. But Nebula killed Her counterpart to protect Gamora?
There is so much love and hope expressed in that one violent sentiment. And Nebula killing her counterpart to save Gamora?
Things start clicking into place and Gamora starts to allow herself to be the bigger picture. The Guardians - her death - will allow Nebula to heal. Nebula can’t thrive with her sister, her competition, her torturer, there. In dying, Gamora will give Nebula a chance to grow and change and experience happiness.
Her death won’t save the universe, but it will save her sister.
That at least clear in her head, Gamora looks up from her thighs and over at her sister.]
I love you, Nebula.